The past and the people

So it's been a while since I have sat down and actually composed a blog. I have been preoccupied to say the least. I've been thinking a lot about my past as of late not the experiences per say but the events that have transpired to turn me into the person who I am today. I am happy with the outcome . I tried not to hurt anyone in the process though there have been a few broken hearts and mean words said but I believe they were inevitable.

I can't exactly pin point what has caused this reflection of my past to resurface to my present mind scape but in a way I am glad that it did. It shows me how much I have evolved as a person and how far I need to continue to grow. I never want to become the girl who became stagnant and stale. You know what I am talking about the girl with the blank expression on her face who couldn't make a logical thought if her life depended upon it. I cringe just thinking about this. Which could lead me into talking about society and why women become this way but I will digress for now. After all this reflection is about me.

I made a promise to myself when I had my 30tThbirthday that I would get my life in order and try to make each day count. I dumped the toxic people in my life. (though some of these people refuse to give me peace) and take a hard look at what I wanted out of life. I could careless about material things. (with the exception of my I-pod. You all know how important my music is to me.) The thing that gets to me every time are the people that have touched my life, each one leaving a small imprint on my heart. Some of them have taught me the hard lessons of what living is all about, some guided me and showed me skills that I needed to know and others were simply there for a laugh or a shoulder to cry on.

I guess it all boils down to the fact is that with out the past I can't appreciate who I am today. We are the mold and the past is the stuff that is dumped in to complete the statue. So to the people who are, ever have or ever will be part of my construction I offer my sincerest thanks for I am eternally grateful for each and everyone of you.