After the rain

It just stopped raining here and I don't think there is a time that I have been more thankful for the rain before. You see when it rains I believe that the soul is cleansed and all the sadness,heartache, bad thoughts, worries, pain and the like are all washed away. We all need for the weight of our souls and hearts to be lifted from time to time so that we can move on from experiences and live again.

I got news Sunday night that my uncle (my grandmothers brother) had passed away. He had gone in to the hospital at the beginning of the week due to aspiration issues and was in bad shape in ICU. My grandmother and I would visit him and with in a few days he was starting to slowly improve but then Sunday night he took a turn for the worst and lost his battle. He was 83 years old and lived a full life and despite his mental limitations he was a really sweet man. I know that a little piece of my heart is breaking to know that he is no longer with us. However the knowledge that he is no longer in pain is comforting but it's still sad.

I spent the last few days in bed. Today It took me until nearly 2:30pm to shower and get dressed for the day. I forced myself to get up (thanks to some prompting from my sweet Boy Friend) had a healthy lunch just in time for the a heavy thunderstorm to roll through knocking the power out. During this time I laid back and listened to the rain and stopped worrying. (Which will be another update in it's self) and began to relax. A calmness overcame me and after the rain I felt better again. Not 100% granted but enough to feel some what normal again. There is a little something magical in nature when the storm passes. For this I am thankful.

It's OK! by Kandee Johnson

IT's OK!
i've had so many times in my life, when i was feeling awful, i'd done something wrong, i was scared, or sad, and all i needed was someone to tell me it will be OK!

Me and my mom were talking last night about my great gramma, who's still alive, she is 90. We were talking about how she never gets upset about anything, she just says, "oh, it'll be okay"! And she tries to make everything something wonderful. If it's cloudy she'll say, "oh goody, it's going to rain", like when she found out I was going to have my Jordan (when I married at 17 and had a baby at 18) she just said, "oh goody, we're gonna have a baby!"

I want you to know, that no matter what is going on in your life, what circumstance, is making you feel sad, or upset, or hurt, or frustrated.... that IT WILL BE OK!
Everything will be ok. You will be ok. No matter what is going on, how you feel it could be the worst thing, you will make it through.

I have my mama, and she has the most gentle ear to tell things to. I can tell her anything, and she will make me feel better about it. She too, also tells me, "oh honey, it will ok, we'll get through it, don't worry!"

And I want you to know, I'm hugging you through the computer, I'm sending my love, and the next time you have one of those things where you think, "OH NO!!!!".....hear my voice saying, "it will be ok, it's alright, we'll get through this!"

-Kandee Johnson-

Memorial Day 2010

Memorial Day 2010

I spent a better part of my day on Saturday at the American Legion to help set up for the Memorial day service. I had the honor of setting up the POW memorial table for this event. (Yes it was a day early but our post has members involved in may different groups) What a beautiful service it was with the memorial garden, honor guard and 21 gun salute it was a great reminder of what this country's freedom is all about.

However I am a bit distressed and am angry that our own president Barack Hussein Obama could not manage to make it to Arlington Cemetery to honor our fallen heroes at the tomb of the unknown soldier. Instead he sent his vice president to do the honor of placing the wreath. So I have expressed my feelings in a letter to the president himself:


Dear Mr. President,

Wouldn't attending the national memorial service have been a great lesson in patriotism and sacrifice of country for your daughters to have learned? Standing with your two little ones watching the changing of the guard in front of the Tomb of the unknowns. You would have seen a young woman lay down on the grave of U.S. Marine Corps Lance Corporal Noah Pier.(Pier was killed Feburary 12, 2010 in Marja, Afghanistan.) This was her way of spending one last day in the sun with him. However you and your family were simply not there.

It breaks my heart that the man that is the commander and chief of this proud nation couldn't be bothered to show up for this service especially since this is your FIRST Arlington Memorial service. While my own Brother this week re-enlisted with the military for another 4 years and at completion of this service will be a total of 20 years dedication and service for this great nation. Many of these services have taken him to Afghanistan, Iraq and Iran. He has even been involved with freeing people from the Somali pirates. These last 4 years of service are going to be under your administration Mr. President. I can only hope that during this time that you will find a better way to honor our veterans as well as the men and women who risk their lives to protect the freedoms that we have here in this nation of the United States of America.