Hello people of this page. It has been a long time since I have updated in here. I finally have a computer up and running though it is not the fastest thing but it is something. This year has been such a challenge for me. I have lost one of my dearest friends (whom I affectionately call “M.A.” online) to illness. He was one of the kindest sweetest people I know. Even though his passing was in January I am still feeling this loss and probably will for some time. On top of this I have not one but two friends that have been evicted for their homes. So between helping both of them move and giving them money I have been not only emotionally but financially strained. Which is not so bad because I get paid tomorrow but I need to renew the tag on my car, pay a credit payment from the dentist, pay my fine to the expressway authority and I am sure there is something else that I cannot think of right now. Plus the breaks and possible cv joints (?) on my car need to be replaced. In moments like these all I can do is step back and breathe and know I am doing the best that I can, working as hard as I can so I can keep a steady income coming in. I sometimes become overwhelmed when I feel that I have too many people depending on me and some of those people act like what I am doing for them is not enough, even though I am doing the best I can or giving the most I can. I wish people could find their own happiness within themselves. I don’t mind giving my time or even my money to people but to then have it thrown into my face is not a good feeling. This time of year always causes me to go into a bit of reflection mode this weekend I will be celebrating my birthday and another year older and hopefully wiser. I will be doing a separate blog reflecting on the year past and where I want to see myself at this time a year from now. I feel like I have made some improvements as far as my new job is concerned and am paying off a lot of debts and bills that I could not afford at my other job so this is defiantly a comforting thought that I am at least holding my head above water where finances are concerned in some aspects. Though there is always room for improvement in this area.