Here it is almost 2am and I can't sleep. I have this crazy feeling in the pit of my stomach. I had such a wonderful day so I can't understand this anxiety some of it is due to the nightmare that have plagued my dreams for the last week and part of it is just the feeling in the back of my mind of not being 'good enough'. (BTW this has nothing to do with self-esteem or confidence)

Sarah McLachlan says it perfectly in her song good enough:

Hey, your glass is empty
It's a hell of a long way home
Why dont you let me take you
It's no good to go alone
I never would have have opened up
But you seem so real to me
And after all the bullshit I have heard
It's refreshing not to see
That I dont have to pretend she doesnt expect it from me

So dont tell me I havent been good to you
Dont tell me I have never been there for you
Just tell me why nothing is good enough

Of course I'll never admit to my insecurities. Since maybe they aren't TRUE insecurities, they could be crazy thoughts running through my head.

Hey little girl would you like some candy
Your mamma said it's ok
Door is open, c'mon out side
No I can't come out today
It's not the wind that cracked your shoulder,
And threw you to the ground
Who's there that makes you so afraid
You're shaking to the bone
No I dont understand, you deserve so much more than this
So don't tell me why he's never been good to you
Don't tell me why he's never been there for you
Don't you know that why is simply not good enough


What makes things so difficult, why is it so hard just to let go and believe that maybe for once things will turn out the way they are supposed to.

Oh so just let me try, and I will be good to you
Just let me try and I will be there for you
I'll show you why you're so much more than good enough
Oh so just let me try and I will be good to you
Just let me try and I will be there for you
I'll show you why you're so much more than good enough